Thursday, August 23, 2007
Seriously, I dont know what is happening to us. Is it just me or him? Even though we seem to be fine now. I fear of losing and being hurt again.
Since three days ago.
I no longer know how to communicate with you and honestly, I am truly not okay.
I've lost everything, my confidence, my will, my drive, my motivation, my everything to study or to do any work.
Are you happy now?
Boy, i really miss the old you. If I get to choose all over again, I want the old you. The one who makes me feel secure and loved. The one who would always be there for me through the darkest moments of my life. Perharps, You didnt know you made me felt this way.
Unknowingly, You became someone so precious in my life. In another words, You became a part of me. And I swear, I cant afford to loose you. No doubt, I treasure this special friendship between us.
This special friendship between us made quite a number of people around us envy. Cause you stood by me through thick and thin. Even though you see the friends I used to had around me leaving me one after another. You still stand by me. We were known as ' The best damm friends'. And nothing could come between us. But now things are so different.
Despite me telling you that I'm jealous whenever you come to me and tell me how I should treat The Twins and stuffs about them. You still carried on. Not only them, I do get jealous when you talk about Kel or at times when you get close to her. The care and concern you had for me seems to be gone. Totally. We are no longer like before. Honestly, I am not used to it.
What's the solution between us? Now there is like this huge wall in between us. We are drifting apart. And here I am trying to stop the drifting but it doesnt seems to help. I've given everything, how about you ? Please, do something about it. What I only wanted back, is the special friendship we used to have.
P/S:
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true friendship.
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the friendship I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true friendship.
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the friendship I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
XOXO,
S.